Artist/Critic

The past few days I have been attempting to do portrait pieces using the medium of charcoal and pencil. I have enjoyed this new place of work and have opened myself up to self-evaluation of what is acceptable to myself and if it is “good enough” to allow others to see my work. As an artist, I feel many conflicts swirling around this thought process. When I am alone creating, I am in a different world, a world full of wonder and excitement of being in this creative realm. I am focused on the piece and nothing can pull me away from this beautiful experience. I will work tirelessly for hours and those hours fly by quickly. I am complete in those blocks of time and I know deep within that this is part of me and I embrace the course of my life without regret or self-evaluation if this is what I should be doing. Then all of a sudden I am finished with the creating and then the logical part of me looks to see the flaws. In the past, the critic in me would be disappointed in the outcome. This time I stood back and saw with a critical eye where I needed to improve on parts of the work. I made a decision to take my work and show two other artists that I trust. They were able to give me pointers and instead of feeling closed off, I was open to their help. I don’t know if other artists feel as I do about this process of creating and I only speak of my own experience but I believe that it’s the conflict of the artist and critic and the battle going on inside that makes this important to the process…both are needed to balance the finished product. One flows from the emotional, creative side and the other flows from the logical part of the brain to complete the work that will stand strong with both sides coming together as one. To see and embrace the artist and critic is a balancing act and in time when the two are accepted within, I believe that is when the work becomes the art.

My garden delight

Union

When I awake and open my eyes the light escapes from my heart and enters the sunlit room. I feel your deep touch upon my soul and I hear your whisper of thunder reverberating within. The sounds of love crash against my heart, pulsating and alive in me as love eternal. I am transported into the reality of the deep heart of eternity by just a soft word of revelation. Light, sound and thought come together and emerges through the perpetually thread of life that we are becoming one. I am connected to the great I Am and by the unification of a Man-God so we could be together for eternity. Your resurrection becomes the point of connection and now nothing will separate this heart beating as one for you, the One who was and is and is to come. The burning eyes of fiery love, the burning lamp stand before the throne of the One True God-Man and I am completed in this union of tenderness and devotion.

A New Day

A New Day is here and I want to encourage you in saying, if your dreams did not manifest this past year then do not lose heart. Our Papa has been working on your behalf to bring about your destiny. Each day brings you to a place of hope if you keep your focus on our Creator. His heart is for your good and every good thing comes from Him. It is easy to become detached, hopeless and discouraged if your focus is misguided. If you can keep looking towards the goal through the filter of the goodness of God then you will be able to achieve everything that is in you and more. Misguided focus becomes a deterrent instead of a motivational force of achievement. Spending time with Our Lord will give you the direction you will need in the upcoming year. There will be many distractions to prevent you from achieving your heart's desire if you allow it to be your compass. The only compass you need is in your heart. It is the direction from the Lord and He is the only one who knows where you need to be at all times, so keep your eyes, ears and heart tuned toward the throne, the seat of authority on which we stand. The way, the truth and the light is the source for the destiny in you to be fulfilled. Worship, seek, ask, converse, be thankful and you will see the heart's desire manifest into your life by His great Hand. This is the year of Light and Revelation. There will be more of His light flowing through His Bride, more light of His salvation, more light of His love being poured out to you. Now is the time to pour out your love by ministering to Him. When you shift from trying to meet your needs and decided to love with all of your heart the King of Kings, the Father and the Holy Spirit then your life will take a path that will lead you to a place that your heart has been longing for. You will learn what real love is and nothing will prevent you from giving that love to others. So go forth into the nations (your realm of influence) with His banner of love over you and you will see great signs, wonders and miracles happening right before your eyes. The old patterns of believe that are not kingdom focused need to be dealt with so the pattern of the life of Jesus can be released into your life. The year of 2012 is a year of great hope, restoration and the birth of the great awakening.

A Christmas gift for one of my friends.

Painting

I feel the brush strokes inside me, colors wanting to burst forth in vivid feelings of truth pent up within my spirit. They want to escape from my heart onto a white canvas of reality that is beyond my touch. How do I paint love and light? I sit and ponder what was, what is and what is to come and together, swirling... past, present, future merging as one thought, one feeling, one emotion and one truth. I make a decision and pick up my brush and release truth into this reality we call the world.