Renewal

God=light, light=sound, sound= energy, energy=mass. Everything is made up of mass which in turn is energy, which in turn is sound, which in turn is light, which in turn is God the Father, I learned this formula from Ray Hughes a powerful man of God...Simple put the whole earth is filled with the glory of the Lord and His DNA is in us and all around us. So when the earth moans and groans things happen, if we do not worship The Father the rocks will cry out! Renewal is upon us but with renewal things must fall away if it is not conducive to the Father's heart and His will for our lives. Renewal is the rebuilding of the city by the authorities. We are the city and we are being rebuilt by the authority that is upon Jesus's shoulders. He is rebuilding us and the nations to his specifications of the blueprints of heaven. His Kingdom come, His will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

I Am The Rose

Our Youth

Listen to the sound of sisters, brothers and cousins running and hiding-go-seeking in a small east Texas town. Do you hear the laughter of days gone by as we caught fireflies? The grownups doing grownup things, and the lights and music they made drifted away, as we escaped into the moonlit nights. We became cowboys riding horses, superman flying up, up and away and knowing we would have fun once again the next day. We imagined in our minds, a child's vision of truth, that everything we did was real but it only lasted in our youth. Red rover, red rover let me come over, teasing hunting dogs, and chasing each other. Playing games we made up along the way of growing and changing each day. As we hide from each other we were quiet as a church mouse behind that little white house . How I miss those days but I know my love for those who are part of me will never fade away.

Red Roses

I received three dozen red roses yesterday. Wow they are so beautiful and their fragrant intoxicating smell fills my home and reminds me of the one who sent them. He is a wonderful man and taking time to express this to me heals me from the times I have been overlooked. Love comes in so many ways of expression, a kiss, a gentle touch, a kind word and time taken to say "I love you." It brings newness and growth inside ones self and it expands from within so then you are able to extend love to another. This is why we are here and the greatest act is to love without condition, fear or expectation.
Moonlight and roses
Bring wonderful mem'ries of you
My heart reposes
In beautiful thoughts so true.

June light discloses
Love's golden dreams sparkling, anew
Moonlight and roses
Bring mem'ries of you...

by Jim Reeves

Dark Wood

I received chocolate today from a man I went to have tea with. It was sweet of him but after I came home I began to struggle with this journey I am in. I am walking out something inside myself that I am trying to figure out. It feels like dark wood of a lone tree growing slowly toward the sun. The rough places in my heart cry for light of the sun to reveal the truth in me. Dark wood protects this tree of my heart. There is hope. When I was younger I did not care about the feelings of others as I went after what felt good at that moment but now I choose to tread carefully with those who are set before me. I honor them and I will do my best to be honest with them as I am with myself. This is new to me, to try to weigh out what is best for me and in the process to be true to what I feel and to be able to express those feelings to another. This is the process of life, honor, respect and agape love.

Love Like You Never Been Hurt

I am going to have a fun weekend...I am going to a dance on Sunday night just to kick up my heels a little. I feel like spring inside myself even though there is snow on the ground right now. I feel alive and ready to meet new people and expand my little world. I can't wait for a new chapter to open up for me and all I have to do is say "YES, I am ready!" I don't know what is going on inside myself but I feel so alive, and beautiful and so me. I have become a woman who is ready to take chances again and to be all that I was created to be. I have been taking care of my needs and making sure I am kind to myself and also learning to love the person I am, faults and all. I feel more like a woman than I have ever felt in my life and I feel I am on the verge of something new. I see myself standing on a hill, with the spring breeze blowing my hair and I smell the new budding flowers. They give off a wonderful fragrance that makes me smile. There is now no more winter in my heart and the ice is melting away so I can love with a pureness and deepness that is in me. To love someone is the greatest gift I could give or receive. Love is in my heart and I need to share it without the thought of rejection or hurt. I want to love in a way I have never done before, to give my heart to someone and to trust that he will care and love me as I am. It is a scary place but I am not going to live in fear because the Lord did not give me a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. That is the truth and I will love as if I have never been hurt!!

Beautiful

I noticed that advertisers want to make you feel that you are not good enough...How white do my teeth need to be? Is my hair shinny and soft enough? How thin must my body become? Are my eyelashes long enough? Am I beautiful? Wait a minute...I am beautiful even if I never achieve what is considered beauty! I am who I am with all the good parts that I like about myself and even the imperfections that I don't like. That is my beauty. Always be authentic and understand that being who you are is what real beauty is. Freedom to accept every part of you will lead to the beauty within and it will flow out of you and then you can say, without a doubt, " I am beautiful!"

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